i need to vent so bear with me. i was doing so good till tonight i had a victems panel talk and i ruled at it. every thing was going good till i got home and saw my mom had my missing pj pants on (they've been missing sense begining of dec i only got to wear them once) i fliped out and yelled then got physical then she went and hid my dad left and i was left bawling i couldnt stop and i couldnt figure out why i kept thinking i should go pop some pills to help calm me down. i faught off the thought for like 7min cry for even thinking to do that. but then caved in and poped 4 vicodin and 2 tramidol (im alergic to tramidol to) now im left wondering why have i done this. #1 hurt/ atacked my mom #2 run my family away. and #3 why the hell did i turn to the pill popping. this is the only place i knew to turn to Im so stupid.what else can i do to control my self?
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