First i saw my therapist Wednesday and she kept telling me that she was sure its chemical imbalance with me that theres nothing thats been going on to cause me to be this depressed and anxious. I been so depressed i dont want to get out of bed and so anxious i have to take klonopin to leave my front door even to go in the hall and get the mail at this point. She said i am doing all i need to and need to accept im always going to need depression meds. THen i saw my shrink and he stressed too i need to accept i will always need depression meds, i have a true chemical imbalance and how theres nothing wrong with needing meds upped or changed. We upped the trintellix and if in 2 to 3 weeks im not doing a lot better i am to call and he will up it again over the phone. I saw my case manager after and i havent seen her in two weeks shes having me come back next week after i see my therapist next week to keep tabs on me right now. I do NOT want to accept ill always have to take pills for depression i hate it and im on so many :( I hate that i an constanly feeling like i wnat to cut even though i havnet in 26 months. I hate all this!
Got my offical diagnoisis well theres 8
Borderline Personality Disorder Active
PostTraumatic Stress Disorder Severe Active
Major Depressive Disorder, Recurrent episode Severe Active
Persistent Depressive Disorder (dysthymia) Active
Substance use Disorder Moderate In Remission 6 years
Self Harm Tendencies (cutting and burning self) in remission 2 years
Uncomplicated Bereavement Active
Other specified feeding or eating disorder Active
I hate having so many damn labels :(
I’m trying really hard to move forward in a new relationship. The guy (who I’ve been with for just over a year) that I’m with and I are very happy together.. aside from lately, even though we’re moving in together to a place to ourselves without out current roomate in a week. I’ve been going through a bit of of depression.. and having been having feelings of extreme low self worth come...