...screening. and my big concern is what if they don't accept me? that would be the end of the line as i see it. as i see it that would mean that there is no treatment for someone who is incurable - me. so i wonder, should i be honest or careful? my therapist says to be honest. don't change truths to try and be what i think will get me accepted. and you know, that while i'm doing whatever to try my best, i will have my hijacker trying to ruin everything. so i'm a bit worried. people don't understand that for me, it is really difficult to do things the way i want when my hijacker wants different. people listen to me and then say i should do this or do that. and i keep saying i can't because my hijacker won't let me and that doesn't sink in. people try to tell me that my hijacker is me and that if it is me then it is i who won't let me. i know that. but i don't know how to make me move if hijacker says no. then there is the frustration factor. i found it intensely frustrating waiting these past two weeks for the appointment. i was already waiting a couple weeks before that for a telephone screening. ok so then i made it through round 1. maybe i'll get through round 2. i'll let you know what happened in the evening. wish me whatever i need to be wished.
i can't be negative though. i really willl try.
as many of u know it was fathers day yday. This year i kept my upset and pain to myself. I feel lost in the mental health system right now having just moved citys. My friends dont understand and i dont like to remind my boyf of the horrible things my dad done to me. Im in emotional agogny and i can not talk to anyone. I feel no connection to anyone in terms of being able to talk onpenly and...
I am a young lot struggling from depression. I was getting so much better until my favorite teacher and friend passed from horrible Cancer. After the loss of my biggest supporter. I am spiraling back in to depression and anxiety. I also now have Anerexia and I’m un sure of what to.