I volunteered for the support line again tonight and I got calls, lots of calls. It seemed like they all came in at the same time too. I was working alone tonight, the line is short on volunteers. Anyway, I did the best I could but I just could not get to all the calls. I was on the line and calls were coming in. I had at least 8 calls in 4 hours I was unable to get to. They really need to get the shortage of volunteers straightened out so we have proper coverage.
Anyway, I was surprised by how much I enjoyed it. I did pass 2 calls off to the mobile crisis team how went out and visited with the calls in person because they were suicidal. One man was a low risk but I passed him over to them anyway because he had enough of the drug Seroquel stocked up to kill him. I think it also hit home with me because that was my drug of choice for an overdose. I know when he told me how much he had, it was enough to get the job done. I also knew that there is nothing they can do once it is in your system. I know the team went out to see him so I felt better and hoped the team would be able to remove the extra meds and get him some help.
Anyway, I think personally I did ok. I was a bit overwhelmed and angry when I was not getting any help with the phone lines but I calmed myself down, and placed the blame where it belonged. I am enough, I was there answering the call, and it is not my fault the organization messed up a working crisis call line model. I cannot take on the responsibilities for things that are out of my control. All I can do is my best and I know I was enough today. I feel good about my shift tonight and I really enjoyed it. The calls were so vast and different.
I think I handled everything ok. I do not feel triggered by anything I heard tonight or talked about. I will have to watch for signs over the next few days to make sure I am ok but I think I am. I think it was actually good for me, I certainly felt useful.
Next Monday...I am volunteering 11pm to 7am. Pulling an all nighter. Not sure I like that but it is only once a month so I am hoping it will be ok and not mess me up to badly.
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