This past week, an extended family member was murdered by her psychopathic ex whom she was trying to get away from. She had just turned 21 yrs old and had her whole life ahead of her. He burned her body beyond recognition and tried to make it look like an accident. They couldn't even ID her.
Over 10 years ago, this was almost me. I was stalked relentlessly by a guy I had briefly dated. It turned out he was a psychopath, felon, and registered sex offender. It was an extreme case of stalking that went on for over a year. He had purchased a gun, had a shrine of pics of me, and tracked my every move despite me moving, buying a new vehicle, etc. I had to put motion sensors in my house, sleep with the bedroom door locked and weapons nearby, and lived in constant fear of him killing me. He was ultimately convicted and, fortunately, is now dead. This is where my PTSD came from.
Unfortunately, after that event, I became a magnet for several more sociopaths, felons, sexual predators, and registered sex offenders. The latest one is in prison and probably will be for the rest of his life.
This recent event has been extremely triggering. My family knows nothing about what happened to me. So they would not be able to understand how this is affecting me. I don't tell them anything about my life. I don't have any close friends that I can talk to about this. The people who know me cannot understand what this is like. So they don't say much of anything. My psychologist of several years retired a few months ago. The new one I've only seen a handful of times is so hard to get an appt for that I can't see him right now.
I work from home due to my PTSD but my employer does not know the cause for my PTSD and I am currently on their shit list and don't want to tell them about this for fear that they'll think I'm making excuses. I am having a breakdown today and am unable to concentrate or do anything.
I don't want to live on this same planet with all these psychopaths anymore. I can't live like this anymore. It's constant. There's a constant supply of them. They've destroyed my life and now they've destroyed this young woman's life and her family's. I'm so tired of all this evil.
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Apparently, every one of us is just a furry puppet with a hand shoved up our bums... https://www.buzzfeed.com/alivelez/everyone-has-a-muppet-that-matches-their-personality-heres