I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2004. My family and my fiancee have been to my therapist. However, my fiancee struggles when I am experiencing a flashback because I am usually so closed off from him. I also do not trust him since he is a man and my abusers were men. I will say things that I don\'t remember that push my fiancee or other people that I love away because I am so terrified. It is like my past is my reality. I hurt people I love because I push them away. I especially hurt my fiancee when I cannot have complete trust with him. I am wondering what other people have done. How to explain it to him because he will just tell me it is over...I get frustrated because it feels like it is happening again. I can\'t get him or others to understand when I am out of touch with reality. Need help. Any suggestions??
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