I was very badly triggered early this morning. The trigger not to be blunt, happened in bed and, it was unusual for me in that I was really into what we were doing and I felt really good. Then it hit me out of nowhere and I went into a full panic attack like I haven't had in at least 10 years. Chest pain the whole nine yards. My partner was very good about the whole thing. He knows my past, in fact he is the only person I have ever told the whole mess too (yet) and he did deep breathing and talked me down then stayed with me until I cried it out and fell asleep. I am totally freaked out about this now. I was in a position that has never ever bothered me before and I knew I was with a safe person/ safe place etc I hadn't lost where I was. How do I deal with him tonight when we are both n from work when I am so embarrassed about my freak out. I feel like I put a lot onto him without warning and all he had wanted was a happy night night. I don't feel like I was fair to him and at the same time I had no warning it was coming so I couldn't stop it. Any advice?
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