Just to give a little background information... the first time I had sex, it wasn’t consensual. Soon after that, I got into a relationship with a very abusive man. He demanded intercourse constantly, and as I became emotionally stronger, I started to say no more often. He began drugging me, and sometimes I would wake up. After I finally left him, I slept with a few people and felt completely detached. Then I started dating again and he made me feel safe and loved. He always listened to me when I said no. But then we broke up and became friends. It’s been challenging because I have feelings for him, and he will go back and forth between having feelings for me, and just “liking me as a person”. To add to the confusion, we are still sleeping together, and it’s made me feel kind of worthless. Like my body is all I have to offer. He used to be a safe space, but the way I’ve been treated recently is bringing back old trauma and memories. I don’t know what I’m looking for, just trying to make sense of this.
I've been shoulding myself allot lately. I should this. . . I should that. . . I should should the should of the should. In my strictly personal herstory, shoulding myself is a psycho nag flag that I am pushing myself to another psychotic break. Eventually I always seem to should my way to classics like, "I should jump in the river and drown."Feeling a little lost this morning. . . Stabilizing...
Hi, i got a question for you, was it easy from the start to have clients?Do you have anxiety? why did you decided to go freelance?sam