Hi. I'm new to this forum. I joined because I needed a place to vent to people who would understand. I'd been in therapy for a while and made a great deal of progress. I thought I was "over" my trauma, but tonight I was reminded that even though the traumatic event is long over, the impact is long from over. I was triggered tonight by something that happened at my sister's house. I'm living with her after relocating 2 weeks ago for a job. I tried to reach out to my mom and other sister for support, but the response I got was "well, it's her house." Immediately I felt angry, scared, defenseless, and ready to flee. I then started to cry: 1) because of what I was feeling and 2) because I was feeling it. I thought these days were behind me; these days of feeling like I had to protect myself from everything and everyone and that I was alone in it because no one really understood how I felt. In short, I just realized that I am still very traumatized. I feel like I can't share this with my family. They think I'm "better" and truth be told, they never understood all of this anyway. I'm just feeling alone and ashamed and sad. I know I shouldn't sit with these feelings, so I'm reaching out.
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