Feeling very tired of my emotional roller coaster. One minute happy as can be. The next minute complete despair. I had a decent weekend with my sister who came in from out of town. She is finally trying therapy and quit smoking. We grabbed a beer at the local bar while my ex took my girls to dinner. When we walked out, he was sitting in the parking lot with the girls in the car. Flipped to despair knowing he is monitoring where I am. Very triggering of the abuse and control he had over me for 20 years. I am tired of letting him in my head and tired of the roller coaster. How do I mentally train myself to keep him out of my head?
I would like to wsh all my friends a Very Happy Easter / PassoverEnjoy the time with familyHugs, Jean
How do you feel like you got away from abuse when you still feel the physical, emotional & mental pain of it everyday - very much so the physical pain makes it feel like did I ever really get away, I mean he didn’t murder me like he wanted to because I finally escaped, but the physical pain makes me still feel like I’ll never get away from the abuse, like I’m still being beat & abused...