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I just sat down and semi compossed a letter to my daughter. I feel like I can just no longer fight the fight. Every day that I am here is a big fat lie. Oh yes I smile make jokes and live as if everything is A-ok,But it is not. No one would ever guess this,I'm good at hiding it. I'm in constant pain inside and out. I lost my middle daughter in 2004,I will never get over this she was only 17, and I miss her so much,She would be having her 21st b-Day on New Years,something I will never share with her. I also live with cronic pain,people don't understand this and say well you look fine,But again I am not. I just cant fight it anymore,I give up,I surender.
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I hope you'll talk to someone. I hope you'll reach out to the people in your life. I hope you'll talk to your counselors.
I hope you'll call for help.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK
I just started on Geodon. That with the Inderal in combination and I finally feel myself. So, there's hope. You just have to let the light in. You just need to find a "carrot" to keep you moving. :)
I have a thought from a different angle for you. What if your life was meant to live for your daughters memory? One of the things that rang in my head during times of extreme hopelessness was knowing that my mother lost her life too young and was not able to show the world who she was or what she had to offer. In much the same way your daughter died too young and was not able to show the world who she truly was. Maybe your reason for being on this earth , reason for pressing on is to represent the life of your daughter. Allow her to guide you and strengthen you. She is here with you-you just can't see her. I believe my mother is with her and in this moment as I am typing to you the two of them are together nodding their heads in affirmation.
Your time is not finished here. We never know when we are able to rise up to be with our loved ones, but until you are with your sweet daughter you need to allow her to live through you - shine through you. Look deep inside- she's there!
I hope that my words were able to offer you some sense of peace. You are not alone!
It would be a good start to share the letter you wrote with a PTSD therapist. One that engages cognitive process therapy typically uses this type of activity to help draw out your feelings and your triggers. Once you become aware of them, you have a better chance of managing them.
Giving up and surrendering to this disease is not something you should do. While I doubt that you will ever look back on this trauma with anything but pain, time and therapy will help you deal with the triggers that keep sending you there.
How would she feel if you died?
Awful to say the least.
Things look dim and grim right now, but maybe there's something that can make you feel better.
Are you on the RIGHT meds?? Some meds can make PTSD worse. Go talk to your PDoc ASAP.
Get in with your therapist ASAP. Talk with your family.
Please don't think suicide is the answer...see how broken-hearted you are over your one daughter??
How would your other daughter feel if you left her on this Earth alone??
You CAN fight...Pick up the phone, get in with your Pdoc, therapist...and if you need to, call the hotlines.
Bless you.