I could ramble on about the abuse I have suffered in my life, and the impact, but the fact is that all that matters is how I am now. I am alone in this world. People dont often realise that when I say ALONE I mean utterly alone. I have no family and friends, I am totally alone. I pushed everyone out of my life two years ago as I couldn't take the abuse any longer.
Probelm is, that I am now too afraid to let anyone in. I dont leave my house except for fitness reasons, and other essential reasons. I am too afraid to start to live again. Scared of everything and everyone. I get as much as I can delivered to my house so that I just dont have to deal with the anxiety that life brings.
But I am very unhappy. I just want to connect with someone. Someone who actually looks forward to talking to me. Who appreciates me, who I can appreciate. Loneliness has pushed me to reaching out online to talk to others. I have tried to join "friendship" sites but have found them full of guys just wanting sex. I just want a friend. Someone to crack jokes with and enjoy conversation with.
Share... to share my life with. I am not looking for love... I am too broken to trust another in a relationship. Why is it so hard to simply find friends???
Hey guys, You can call me Cam and I’m a 17 year old girl still in high school. I’ve been feeling very afraid about this for a while now, lately it’s been keeping me up at night.What it is, is that I just can’t bare the thought of growing up. Of dying, of being without my parents and without the comforts of my home and family. It scares me so bad. I already have bad anxiety so this makes...
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