Well, early this morning I found out that one of my good friends committed suicide late last night. When I heard it I was ok but very sad about it. Then I went to church this morning and before the service I talk to the Pastor and told him about it. The weird thing is that I just talked to my friend yesterday and everything seemed to be ok, just another day, it was the same old shit, we were joking and having fun and stuff. My pastor said he was just trying to say his good byes, but how inconsiderate cause I never got to say mine or have a chance to talk him out of it, God damn it, he never even hinted that there was anything wrong, there was No signs or anything. During the Sermon the Pastor said a prayer for him and I could not help but to feel like crying. I don't cry, I know I should not hold things in but that is how I am build. It is not a man to cry, that is how I was raised, but I really felt like it when the Pastor was telling the story and said the awesome prayer for my friend. To add to it the people at the church were all so supportive and that is something I am just not use to. My friend had kids and I feel for them, it makes me so sad that they have to go on without him. Why do people chose to kill themselves and not take in to consideration the feelings of those that love and care about them around them I may never understand. Now, I truly understand the pain someone could have though from someone doing such a thing and it sure does hurt to never have the chance to say good bye to him. I am asking all my friends on here to please keep my friend in all your prayers tonight. His name is Brian, and wish him a good journey up to heaven. Well, I got to go cause it is too hard to do this right now, the feelings are just too strong about it right now. Y'all have a good day and may god be with you all. If any of you ever feel like doing something like that reach out don't hurt those around you and leave things unsaid cause all that does is make those around you that care only feel lost and hurt in side. Don't be inconsiderate, there is always someone that cares out there and nothing is worth killing yourself over. Only god understands I guess. Well, hang in there y'all.Cry