I struggled insanely last night with being triggered by my ex. He Skypes with them at least once a week. The conversation always triggers, but last night was much worse than normal. I heard my oldest playing piano and after each song saying, "I know that sucked" before he could say anything. I didn't think it sucked especially given she hasn't practiced or had a lesson in over a year. I felt trapped in my house by him again. I felt the same bullying. It was horrible and I didn't handle it well. Had a cigarette (I don't smoke regularly and feel horrible today). A bit of self-harm too. I hate the fact I have to interact with him. I feel trapped and unable to escape my abuser. Any tips?
Life is bullshit. Horrible scenario where I was vulnerable opens up to a friend about my assault and my life. Friend was nice but I was a stuttering idiot and I want the pain to go away.
I am struggling with depression. I had it before but it was getting better. After my favore teacher and friends horrable passing suddenly I was thrown back into a spiral of depression and anxiety. Everyday is a constant reminder of Michelle. I’m just unsure of where to go or what to do