I struggled insanely last night with being triggered by my ex. He Skypes with them at least once a week. The conversation always triggers, but last night was much worse than normal. I heard my oldest playing piano and after each song saying, "I know that sucked" before he could say anything. I didn't think it sucked especially given she hasn't practiced or had a lesson in over a year. I felt trapped in my house by him again. I felt the same bullying. It was horrible and I didn't handle it well. Had a cigarette (I don't smoke regularly and feel horrible today). A bit of self-harm too. I hate the fact I have to interact with him. I feel trapped and unable to escape my abuser. Any tips?
only second day out of hospital and i'm already low.my stupid fridge is busted but it doesn't even matter.even though my boyfriend calls me several times a day and makes me laugh i feel so alone.i am sitting here vaping in one hand,holding an ice pack in the other (for some reason freezer still works).so many skills learned and can't put them into practice right now-hate myself so much.
I cant take much more, money worries, disabled daughter, useless husband.