Sorry everyone. Really really struggling with loneliness. Tried hard to not feel lonely. Spent the day out working on the yard. Grilled for the first time. Grilling for one blows. I get that my loneliness is substantially due to my c-PTSD. Fair enough but I feel like my life will be meaningless because I can’t ever connect with anyone emotionally. It feels like bullshit.
My nightmares often center around the bystanders. The people that could have done something...but didn't. Why not? Was I not worth it? Otherwise, they acted like good people. They'd talk to me...just not when anyone could see.
My daughter’s and dog will be heading to their father’s for a month shortly. While I am looking forward to being able to have my own time, I am feeling sadder each day with the prospect of them being gone. I have little to no social life and spend every evening/ night interacting with them. Requested a few days off next week to spend a little extra time with them. Very difficult. I...