Mother's day... Blah!
I have two moms. I called and respectfully wished them a happy mother's day. I actually had a conversation with my step mom, the last person on the planet that I thought would want to talk to me as I'm the family's fuck up.
I start a new job tomorrow and I'm crazy anxious about it. I'm pretty sure I can do the job and excel at it. It's a call center. I'll be dealing with an energy company taking only inbound phone calls regarding their accounts, taking payments and possibly having to stop services etc...
I haven't worked full time in four years! I already have a lot on my plate with TMS, therapy, and all my medical issues. I don't know how I'm going to balance it all? My anxiety is very very high!!!!
So today sucked and tomorrow is the big day! Ah, my heart is racing just typing this.
I'm off to bed. Hopefully I'll fall asleep fast and not lie there worrying. If I'm not too tired I'll let y'all know how the first day went.
I was violently raped several years ago by my (at the time) best friends husband. I have been working with a T for the past 2 years and thought I had worked through my feelings and issues. I had been doing better for a few weeks, not having bad flashbacks/nightmares; not thinking about it everyday; not being so triggered all the time. But the past two weeks or so everything has been flooding...
I did something I've never done before.... and reached out to my pastor. Told him about a few of the health problems lately and asked if there's anyone who could accompany me to my doctor's appointment today. My husband was orginally supposed to come but he got called into work due to them being short handed. I've been dealing with abdomenal pain and discomfort for a few months and a CT scan was...