In patient was a bust. Nobody talked to me. I was there "to be watched". Went to the posted classes and there would be nobody there. Finally they came and said my insurance wouldn't cover any more days so they released me. Had no access to drinking water and people litterally got into physical brawls over the food. It was awful. So here I sit still feeling bad about myself and situation and wondering whether it's worth hanging around. Halloween is coming which is one of the worst nights for me. Don't know how I'm going to handle it. I'm scared. Feeling unworthy, unwanted and alone.
Last weekend, we had about 8” of snow. I remember being delirious and sick while it fell. I remember feeling terrified, walking barefoot in the garage and snow to a chair that they strapped me into. I remember sitting in the back with the paramedic monitoring my deteriorating state (repeatedly asking me what my name was, how do I spell it and not knowing these answers). I remember...