i suppose i *am* depressed.springtime has always been my most difficult time.most of my hospitalizations have been in the spring.
and it is not even spring-like.it's cold,and dreary,and they are calling for flurries next week.
i don't see my therapist for a month.
still,they arise....my ex,who drove every ounce of my self worth into the ground,(did i ever get it back?)my brother who....i don't even want to think about my brother.
i had the thought this morning that if i didn't have my cat to take care of,i wouldn't care about having a heart attack caused by my anorexia.
and pills,and of all things,drinking laundry detergent.
i promise you all i will keep myself safe.
i desperatley need to cry and cry and i can't.
have been listening to this song to try and cry but it just isn't working,although it is a good theme song for me right now...
I joined a complex PTSD group on Facebook. Someone wrote a post about how they think that their problems with complex PTSD make it too difficult to have a relationship. Not only because it's difficult for them but it's a heavy burden to put on another person, especially a healthy person who doesn't deal with these issues.It ends up being a pretty good discussion. One woman had the same issue...