The sadness of the dogs getting so old and being so close to saying goodbye. Some days I'm okay and they seem fine and then days like today I become extra sensitive and see things that may or may not be there. Shepherd doesn't want to go down the three garage steps now, has advanced cataracts and probably a vision thing although her back legs aren't that strong anymore either so could be that. Then I just see how a 13 year old German can get so old so quick. Didn't help picking up dog food at the vet and having some poor girl come in having to put her cat down and crying hysterically. That's gonna be me with these dogs sooner than later and it makes me so so sad. I feel like I'm already lost.
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