All that hope turned to mush. I should stop reading/searching so much and just wait for therapy to do whatever it’s going to do.
What’s confusing me is counseling.
I see my filter. I know it’s not my job to limit his anger. That’s not my role as wife. But it feels like my role as self because I’ve seen red flags. Is she saying those red flags are in my head, that being grabbed and not allowed to take space or leave a room is normal? I disagree... Was I just supposed to stand my ground and hope he’s not like others? Just keep being bold and wait for it? That feels unsafe. I needed the reminder that I am not what I’ve been through, but aren’t there some ways a filter is helpful? Knowing that he’s operating through a filter, does that excuse his behavior?
Cool beans, I get it. Struggling because my sister doesn’t give a shit about me. I understand I am a fuck up. Crazy weird and useless 12hours 10mun.
i moved here with him.Yes that was my choice.But was that the right one?My best friend had said she was worried he was trying to isolate me...And i knew no one here,i still don't.He would get so mad when i went to a poetry reading or an acting class.So i made no friends.He knew i went to ALANON.i should have kept that a secret.i felt like i couldn't go anywhere.Meet anyone.Just stay at home and...