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I am just feeling so DOWN. I want to lay in bed and sleep...and not do a darn thing. Sometimes not even get on the internet...I don't watch TV anyways.
I have been not getting up til the last second to get my kids to school.
My Grandma's Death Anniversary is Nearing...it's on the 17th of this month.
With the Health issues with my MIL's Heart, I think it's unleashed some old wounds that I had with my Grandma and her Heart Issues and Her Stupid Doc's.
I was with my Grandma when she died at home, and I gave her the OK to slip away into her Spiritual Journey Home. I gave the Eulogy at her Funeral.
I still cry when I think about her, and I get angry at the Doc's and my Family for not listening to me.
We discussed this at my last therapy session. And, I listed it down on my list of Traumas.
I guess I didn't realize this could effect my PTSD as well.
I don't know to what effect it has had?? I think maybe I have had compounded Traumas??
I even listed the deaths of patients I coded...but I don't feel that affected me....
I have so much to do..yet feel paralyzed and can't move on anything.
I have been not getting up til the last second to get my kids to school.
My Grandma's Death Anniversary is Nearing...it's on the 17th of this month.
With the Health issues with my MIL's Heart, I think it's unleashed some old wounds that I had with my Grandma and her Heart Issues and Her Stupid Doc's.
I was with my Grandma when she died at home, and I gave her the OK to slip away into her Spiritual Journey Home. I gave the Eulogy at her Funeral.
I still cry when I think about her, and I get angry at the Doc's and my Family for not listening to me.
We discussed this at my last therapy session. And, I listed it down on my list of Traumas.
I guess I didn't realize this could effect my PTSD as well.
I don't know to what effect it has had?? I think maybe I have had compounded Traumas??
I even listed the deaths of patients I coded...but I don't feel that affected me....
I have so much to do..yet feel paralyzed and can't move on anything.
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I think anger affects PTSD more than the sorrow of someone passing. I suffered a long time after my sister passed... Not because she passed so much, as because a week or so before she died, my dad set up a fake "family reunion" so everyone would have a chance to say goodbye. She had to ride half an hour to get to it, and they had to stop more than once so she could throw up, she was so sick. Then everyone wanted to take pictures with her, and she tried to smile for them, but it hurt her so bad she clutched her abdomen the whole time. I was soo mad that they put her through all of that so they could feel they met their obligation to see her before she passed!
What helped me was turning the anniversary of her passing into a more positive memory. She and I used to love to go hiking, so I used to go for a long walk in the woods on her anniversary, feeling her presence with me and telling her everything that has gone on in the last year, as if we were getting together like we used to. Sometimes I'd take something (biodegradeable) into the woods and place it in a really pretty place as a tribute to her. I always felt better afterward.
Is there something you could do that would remind you of happy times with your Grandma?
Blessings to you and to her,
Wistala
But, that's where her last pic was taken. I didn't really realize how emaciated she was...and to look at a pic taken of her a year prior to her death, it was startling.
She died shortly after that dinner reunion.
I usually make a pretty flower arrangement to place on her headstone. I make it out of her favorite colored flowers...PINK...and of course lots of Daisies from me.
I will usually bring another angel or something else, a hummingbird to decorate her gravesite with, and I clean around her headstone. Then I sit and talk with her and my Grandpa.
Woodlandpath...it was traumatic I guess for me to not be heard. I felt like they still saw me as a little girl, instead of a grown young woman, with a professional degree that has the ability to code someone...shock someone back to life.
Ya know what, I still feel like that little girl...not fully grown up...b/c I feel like no one is listening to me and believes what I say...and discounts me and my feelings and behaviors.
Solongago...I read your entry earlier today, just hadn't responded yet, but I mustered some energy and worked on my SSD tonight. They shut the system down at 1am...so not done yet...tomorrow.
Thanks everyone...reminds me to cherish my Grandma...Just still holding on to the anger of not being listened to...and that torks me off.