I’ve been really missing having a friend I can be completely open with about my PTSD. I had that before grad school but now all those friends are far away. I want someone who I can discuss the daily travails with, without it being serious or weird. I thought I could have that with one of my friends. I was excited about opening up to her, so sure that she would provide the support and companionship I wanted.
She was...diplomatic. Understanding but not curious, careful about her words. I think I wanted her to want to know more, to ask how she could help. Anything more than the “I don’t know what it’s like, but I understand that it’s hard” line. There’s nothing wrong with that response. I wanted someone who I could share the little daily things with. Like my conflicting fear and desire for going abroad this summer. Or how I was triggered in class the other day because the professor mentioned the Mayo Clinic and that reminded me of how I almost went to the Mayo Clinic. I wanted to normalize PTSD, to talk about it like students talk about homework or weekend plans. I guess I’m still searching for such a companion.
hey y’all! So me and my boyfriend have been together for 7 months and I just found out that he is addicted to watching porn which is not really a big deal to me I know everyone watch it. It just make me not feel like he is sexually attracted to me anymore cause we have had sex in 2 months but he watches porn and (you know what) almost everyday. I just don’t know what to do anymore cause...
im in hypervigilance. Im scared of everything and everyone. Everything is a trigger. Im in the crisis house and allowing myself to feel is making me worse.