Hi everyone. I asked DS to reactivate my account after talking with a friend who suggested I make sure I am returning for myself and not just to see how my friends here are doing. I do need to keep the support chain going both ways. Gets hard sometimes, but I hope to be able to manage that a little better now. Anyway, just wanted to say hello. I hope to catch up with thugs around here in a few days and also bring myself to the point of addressing my own stuff again too. I developed a bad habit while working on acceptance of crossing over into ceasing processing my feelings so it’s like I don’t deny my past experiences anymore but my simply accepting them I’m giving myself permission to deny the actual feelings and that doesn’t quite work either.
Who knew even acceptance would be lead to denial. Tricky little boogers.
My 4 miscarraiges do not make me less of a mother, like my thearpist said yesterday when she signed the Certificates of life of me naming my 4 angel babies in heaven, i am a proud mother of 4 they just arent here on earth. The angel of life saw them and said too precious for earth and put them beside God. My babies now have names. William Richard (Richard is dads middle name) Olivia Jean (Jean...
My anxiety is at an all time high, the Fall semester ended December 8th and I'm one step closer to achieving my academic goals. Nevertheless, as of lately I've been an emotional wreck and feel like a failure, I'm so lonely it hurts, I'm 33 years-old and have never had a romantic relationship, never, and I feel as though I'm running out time (anxiety). I have been crying and longing a lot over...