am i the only one who has nitemares about their abuser and the things their abuser said? example:my mother said i would burn in hell for misbehaving and i\'d be in a room full of snakes beings i hated them, now i dream my house is covered with them, they are huge and everywhere in my house, they chase me,eat me and i have to cut my way out. the voices is just my mother screaming my name and i have answered her before it dawned onto me where i was at.and as far as feeling things...example: when i\'m really depressed,i become scares of the dark, and i \"feel\" i am being watched by what i call \"demons\"...there is 3 or 4 of them under a black cape, and they hover in air, they don\'t touch the floor, they stay behind me thru out my house if i get up in the middle of the night, i have run from room to room, they run with me, it feels like 50 pounds on my shoulders, i feel it, i never seen them though but yet i can tell you how many and what they look like and whay they are wearing, they sometimes aren\'t there, they only come around mostly while depressed. my doc says demons are associated with sexual abuse, my other doc says it is delusions from ptsd and an earlier doc said i was simply schizphrenic????? does this sound familiar? what are your thoughts
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