i am feeling more with drawn from my family freinds and me, i am empty, no more tears, no more frustration, no more loving, no more caring, no more angry, i still have fears they dont gon away i still see him in the distant, but im calm, numb. has any body experinced this ? i feel starnge and that i am changing outside i am changing i dont liek the way i look, i have dyed my hair brown, i had tattoos and got another 4 to be done... is this rational of an sane person or is this a protection thing ??? i no for sure i dont like who i was and who i have become because of what he has taken away from me and i feel sick to the core that his is still trying to controll my mind... so i think i am safe not feeling , not wanting , not loving, not caring.
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