I got mys econd Covid shot. The clinci was supopsed to be set up in an old storefront, and adults getting 1s shots to this side, kids getting 1st shots to that side, and adults getting 2d shots like me to the middle aisle. Only it was total chaos. NOBODY told the volunteers about it, apparently.
Over half an hour standing in line, in an unventilated old storebuilding, sweating b/c it was maybe 150 people packed into a space meant for 50 at a time, judging by the guidelines on their own big notice about it.
I FINALLY got m y shot but was told to sit for 15 minutes.
Just in case.
Thing is.... as snarky as I am now.... I was so sweaty, crushed in, surrounded, and this big old storefront made every voice echo like crazy.... i couldn't stand it. I tried to do four different exercises to calm down but I'm standing, and standing, and standing som emore, and it's crowded, and there's nothing but people around, and the voice noise banging on my ears.. I have to stick around another fifteen, nowhere to even sit, nowhere to get a breath of air, a cold drink of water, ANYthing, and we weren't allowed to bring stuff in with us. No, not even water, no purses, nothing. Keep it moving along! ... except they didn't.
I maybe stood there two-three minutes? then someone said, "You okay?" and I yelled NO! and then bolted for the exit. the world had gone into that panic-blur. Y'know?
I feel better now but I felt totally embarassed, humiliated, etc. I don't live in the biggest town/city situation. I'll see some of these people again. I just wanted to crawl under a rock. I still kinda do really.
Thursday morning I get my bloodwork.Then I can finally eat a slice of pizza. Why? B/c I take meds that distort a few values, and m ycurrent GP won't recognize that, or that the rules are guidelines. People don't all live in the Happy Medium, and it's okay. We're all a little biochemically different. My normal ain't your normal, sort of thing. Not down in those tiny details. But I am SICK of...
I feel like some days I totally have this. And other days I'm really suffering.