I think I am loosing my mind. I was assaulted by a BF in high school, 14 yrs ago. And left a verbally, physically, Sexually abusive husband 11 yrs ago. ( He raped me whenever he felt like it.) After I left I had sever panxiety attacks, Always felt like someone was watching/following me, Couldn't sleep, and I'd hide in myhouse (which was hard to do with a 1 yr old. Unfortunately, I didn't go to counseling at the time, it just slowly got better. But over the last few weeks I've noticed some of it coming back. I've been under a lot of stress financially, I've been taking care of my mother (who we think has Parkinson's) and she is almost unrelenting in telling me how wrong my life is and everything I do. The last 2 days have been almost unbearable. If I am not busy I keep remembering the attacks I suffered years ago like they happened yesterday. I can't quit crying and I just want to hide in my room. I worked in a nursing home for years and took care of vets with PTSD but I never associated it with DV & SA. I'm going to call my counseller today, but could Ptsd be whats going on. I hate feeling like this!
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