I *know* its depression. I *know* it is worsening bcs I am having more flashbacks and memories. I *know* not to be too harsh on me. I don't *feel* any of these things. Its just criticism and negativity galore. How can I be so cruel, and so self indulgent? My therapist gave me two tips - stand back, remove myself and act as an observer. Secondly if I can, stop looking at the big picture and focus on a small part of it. Hard to do when everything is enmeshed.
Anyone struggled with not looking at the whole picture? Standing back and detaching yourself emotionally?
Does anyone experience a lot of stomach pains, like weird sharp pains around the stomach and chest?
Last year at this time I got a tick bite that put me in hospital for 11 days. Since then I've lost my love of gardening. I've lost my way of living a life that brings any type of happiness or satisfaction.The good in my life has come from Al-anon, giving myself permission to have boundaries and opening up myself to my son, through being available to/for and treating him as a young adult rather...