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on edge

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i'm not feeling good the last few days.

on edge and i'm not sure what is going on inside of me.

slightly dissociative.

not all that 'here' today.

not wanting to be near anyone.

bits of images that are just under the surface...the shadow images/memories.

possibly even from dreams..bad dreams..from years ago.

i'm not sure how that happens..

i am HERE but i'm not...and i don't know where the other parts are.

trying to do quiet, safe things so nothing bad happens inside.

like any second, something is going to break loose inside.

i'm trying to hold onto something solid...trying to figure out how to not let it get me.
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oh dear i just went through that and I wasn't liking it at all.Its like something is going to give and if I just stay queit enough and still enough we might make it.eeery and exhausting.
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this is a good time for focused deep breathing and something physical like tapping if you know that one. Something to bring you out of your head and into present time.
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It helps to start a journal. If that part is ready to be communicated, you might find yourself ready to communicate it on paper, in a picture or other form, not necessarily in writing. Just be available to see what "bubbles" up, and honor it when it does!
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Yes, the journal is a good place to start. It can help you sort things out. Along the way, you may realize you want to try different meds (I use propranolol to stop the dissociative stuff) or want different therapy (EFT, EMDR) or want to look for new clinicians.

Definitely journaling how you are feeling and finding others how get it and how it feels to try and contain everything when it ALL seems to be going wrong is very helpful. Totally gives perspective and then the ability to decide where to step next. :)
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I agree with both focusing on the breath and journaling. i add that taking walks or something physical ...bike riding...seems at these sort of times that all of these options are the last things one might do so basically it is something one has to do. also getting books out of the library and reading up on PTSD or perhaps other topics that you know you have been interested in. I remember calling my therapist, a rarity, and he told me to ride my bicycle to work...so I did and things did pass.
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You know what, my dogs really (and one in particular) bring me back from the dissociative. More so, they both keep me present and focused. They really help me hold on. Have you thought about a service dog? That might really help.
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