Welp... That didn't take long. My friends daughter is back sleeping on my couch. She went back to her ex boyfriend two nights ago and tonight she called because her boyfriend was trying to strangle her and was hitting on her. So naturally my friend who is staying with me as well, S, went and drove around trying to find where she was at. They were on the side of the road fighting. Someone saw that he was hitting her and called the police. S showed up right as the police were. So now I have a broken beaten scared 27yr old hurting sleeping on my couch. What a way to pull at my heartstrings! I feel so bad for her and I feel even worse for my friend, S. S decided to go back with her boyfriend after he apologized. So they are staying at his storage unit together at night and they are here during the day. Sometimes they come just for food and to shower. I don't know what's going to happen now? I told K that if she called him, or contacted him in anyway she was gone! I can't live her drama and also try to heal my own. I also said to all of them that if there was an arguing at all between Mom and daughter or mom and boyfriend that they needed to take it outside or leave all together until they cooled off. I can't have that in my house, period! Why do I have to have such a big heart and so much love? I feel like I got the short end of the stick. I have been treated like shit by almost everyone I have ever trusted. Their love wasn't real because they didn't know how to love to begin with. My house is full of those who have recently been really hurt by love. How can something so good hurt so bad?
I have a busy day tomorrow: Laundromat, quick store run, home to get ready to leave, therapy, home, put clean clothes away, hopefully nap. I hope with how real I was with my therapist the other day will help with tomorrows session.
Thx for listening to my drama and supporting me. If it wasn't for DS I'd be a right mess.
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