I don't want to feel this way but it's become the way things are. No matter what happens I feel pain and emptiness. Sleep is a fearful confused two hours here and there. Waking to a feeling of dreadful confusion and fright so I'll get dressed and search everywhere making sure my gates are locked and secure. I won't find anyone but that doesn't matter because the next time I wake up I'll do it all over again. Today's a pounding relentless headache, I should feel tired or hungry or something but I feel confused and frightened and alone.
Ill be glad to see orthopedic doctor on my shoulder on Monday and maybe he can tell me what is going on with neck. Already had the surgery on neck last year so I'm not wanting any repeat on that but some symptoms have returned but only if I'm doing a big job. This morning I cleaned in the garage prior to starting to get some packing started. It was enough extra to have neck heating up.