Well, so far, I have actually heard people on Seroquel talking like this, so I am starting to wonder about that med. Maybe you should talk to your doctor about some other options or maybe you should take something else with it. (I have to go check my research under Med Ideas & Why to remember if Seroquel was helpful with "all" catecholamines or needed to be taken with something else as well. Maybe it's not even effective... Maybe it was Serzone that was effective.)

Anyway, I hate when I dip on weekends too. Still, feeling guilty about being "human" just aggravates everything. We all get weak. I find the strongest people on here struggling badly at times. They are still amazing to me!

I don't know if it's about "withstanding" thoughts. Suppression just seems to create issues. I've always felt that way and, now that I am reading Alice Miller, that just keeps being reinforced. Check out my pics and tell me what you think of the pages I scanned. (Click on them and they get larger.)

I just want to go to bed right now and, instead, I keep running to the restroom. Ugh! Anyway, I need to set up the scanner and I am going to put up a few more pages from another book that might be interesting. I want to do it tomorrow afternoon, if I can just go to bed instead of getting yucky! :(

Oh, and I think you should pick a super hero. I dunno, something about seeing mine around really pumps me up. :)

Are you taking all your meds?
If so they do not seem to be working and you need to see your doctor to get different ones.
I know guilt is a big issue but do not be ashamed of what you have done, people feel concerned that you are in a low state at the moment and care for you without judging. You do need to see a Doctor or get to the hospital if you feel so low. Have you told anyone else how low you are feeling?
If not can you tell somone in your family who can support you through this bad patch. You may be feeling weak now but this will pass.

Hannah's right. I was "on the verge" and my case manager threatened forcibly committing me this past Monday. I prayed and prayed and prayed and God sent me a BIG way out. You just never know when... It's wild and scary but when that hand comes out to help you up, IT ROCKS! :)

You really need to get in to see your therapist as soon as possible. Some things are too much for us to tackle on our own. We're all just human. I hate it when I backslide, but that's part of the cycle of my healing.

thank you for all your support. im seeing my therapist today. my hubby has stayed home from work to stay with me.