Hi everyone. I am new here. I decided to join because I am going through so much today. I know there are so many people who have been through worse experiences or are going through them now but the axienty is too much for me.
I was in a bad car accident almost a month ago. It was suggested that I have ptsd from the crash. Long story short I was driving to my new job, a job in which I was hoping to be my forever job. On the very first day I was turning into the entrance of the job and I here a loud crash and feel my vehicle move in a force I have never felt before. Having only been in one minor accident I was in so much shock I didn't know what happened.
I never saw the guy until he hit me. I was smacked so hard the air bags hit me so hard I now have a bruised sternum, bruises that extended from my left abdomen to my right in the most horrible black, blue and purple colors, a hemtoma in my left abdomen, and about a 2 inches burn on my right hand. But this isn't the worst part. Because I made a left they are blaming me for the accident, even though the guy was speeding. The police officer at the scene was just horrible to me. I had the worst panic attack I ever felt and I felt like I was having a heart attack. I couldn't breathe.
I now have these feelings when I get on the highway that everyone is going to drive straight into me. When I get closer to my work where the accident happened I shake so badly and it takes at least 15 minutes for my heart rate to go back to normal.
Because my job is new I have no health insurance so I can't seek treatment. I don't know if its ptsd or severe anxiety, or both but it is taking over my life. I can't sleep and I think of nothing else.
I am seeking a new job to take me away from the area as it will be a constant reminder. Not to mention the a hole who hit me has his car at my work( I work at a collision center).
I am hoping for a new beginning and put this all behind me. My insurance is settling his stupid bodliy injury claim, I have a new car( thanks to the guy totalling it), a new job. I am hoping this will pass.
I am sorry for the long post. If anyone has any advice I would greatly appreciate it. I am just hoping a can get through the next week until I can start my new job. It is 4 minutes from my house.
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