I joined this group in thought I may relate to someone.
Here are my issues:
1) I was born with a very rare heart problem and doctors said I would not make it past my 8th birthday. My heart condition meant I could die at anytime. So living with that was hard. I underwent 2 heart surgeries at 7 and 15 years old. I am now 44. I have also experienced 2 pulmonary embolisms so now on blood thinners. I have also had seizure which one caused me to chock, but my mom saved me. I also had a spinal tap with several staff holding me down while I was crying “no”. I was 7 at the time.
2) My brother molested me when I was young.
3) I was a nurse but was attacked by a patient causing permanent arm/neck damage in 2018
4) My husband cheated on my while I was on bed rest for our son I have been 100% faithful and only been with my husband we are still together after 21 years of marriage
this is not everything but my most traumatic ones
i feel ashamed/embarrassed. I have anxiety and ptsd really bad. I am on med but panic attack nightmares and experience hyperstartle reflexes. I also have a hard time going outside. It so debilitating. This really did not kick up till what happened at work and then the flood gates opened I see a psychologist to help
Just looking for support through this
ptsd sucks as you all know
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