I have a far way to go in my treatment but have come such a far way I haven't had serious flashbacks in like 7 months at least so they freak me out bad when they happen especially one this vivid and strong. Last night I fell asleep before my husband got home then woke up in the middle of the night and wasn't in my room I was in THAT room I laid horrified until I freaked and woke my husband up at 4am. Needless to say my quality of sleep wasn't that good after that.
I had to take one of my as needed meds before work because I was so anxious and those make me a little forgetful. Got triple sat by the hostess so was in a rush and I didn't card a couple who looked about mid 30's (company policy says card up until 39.5) I knew I should of carded but I was in a rush they were fussing with a crabby baby so I just let it go not thinking anything of it. Turns out it was a company sting and I had an immediate suspension. Now I can't work for like a week. I'm freaking out we need the money bad and this is all over serving someone who looked in their mid 30's without carding. The worst part is I normally card everyone.
So basically I feel like I don't want to leave bed in the foreseeable. Bright side I did buy some supplies to make a bracelet with a gift card I had.