I've had a hard journey in this life and really surprised that I am still here. It all started to go bad after a back injury,bad surgery, loss of the dream job I loved (research & development in advanced electronic design of data and control systems of government projects), loss of a wife whom I met in '77 (the only woman, other than mom, I have ever loved); Then falling into deep depression have become isolated for many years. Dealing with chronic pain, and unable to work, only made matters worse. It got to the point, in '94 &'95 that I tried to end all of it with pain med. O.D.'s; But for some reason it wasn't my time and they restarted my heart on 2 occasions... Then in mid '95, I was beaten by young gang members, just kicking me while I lay on the ground when walking through a park just for kicks, and sustained injuries which included head injuries. I have only minimal residual effects now from them; but it didn't help my situation. I was taking morphine and Dilaudid for 10 years and finally told the doctor that I had enough of them and discontinued them 1-01-07. It has been hard for me to learn how to live again; It, in many ways, has been hard for me get back into life and regain the passions that made life worthwhile. I grew up depending only on myself for help and find it very difficult to ask others when I could use some; It's always been easy for me to help other in need though. But I could use some always use input on where from here; And this is something I am now trying to change about myself.
After some reflection, I have just realized, after all I have been through, survived, and have learned so from these experiences, that I could probably do more by helping others with some of these same issues; And ways to help them to get through them.. So I offer my help and welcome any from you.