I find this hard to post and I do not know why. At the core of my marriage problems is the lack of support and feeling I am alone in my marriage. I was very ill a few years back when I met my husband, after a year of diagnosis I ended up with a bacteria infection from a stupid tick. So after a year plus treatment and feeling super like I was 30 again (I am late 50's), the symptoms slowly returned. Mainly in my heart which is where I had the problem. I consulted 2 specialist and my family doctor who had personal expericene with my infection. All 3 said the tick borne illness is sexual transmittied, a few medical studies have shown that. So, it was recommended both my husband and i take the course of long term antibiotics so we won't ping pong it back and forth.
I was upset to do it all over again, not so much the antibioitcs, simple enough enough to take, but it makes you sun sensitive and the sun is my peace for my C PTSD. Last spring during marriage counselling session my husband finally admitted he faked taking them. Took them for a bit but did not take the full prescription. He had in other sessions lied admittedly he had taken them. I was in denial I think looking back as there were signs. But this is a bacteria that kills you and he is in the medical proffession and I just did not think he would do that, or anyone with a will to live.
So it has been 6 months since this time, I am back on the antibioitcs my family doctor said this was it as my diagnosis was a few years back. Our marriage counsellor, we have changed, says it is the emotion behind why he did this that is critical. He did not support me through this difficult time nor does support me with my PTSD, does not believe that either. I have had 2 counsellors and doctor diagnose me and I am in a top hospital programme for treatment as well. I feel very lonely and unsupported, I do not know what else to say.
OK. So. Four years ago this weekend, in fact, my mom's odd behavior of 2 years was shown to be due to a large brain tumor. It was removed, she survived, and a year later had 2 heart attacks in 3 months. And survived. (Basically, yes, she should've died.)The years before the brian tumor, Mom lived in a part of my house I spent my IRA to renovate for her use for her retirement home. Yep. No, it...
My dad is ringing a lot. I have been no contact for approx 3 months now. i cannot answer as I know they will guilt and shame me about making them feel bad. This tactic usually works but I realized I cannot be held responsible for their feelings. Anyway I have realized dealing with complex PTSD I cannot have family in my corner as they are not helpful. Anyway this whole situation is bringing me...