i was abused from the ages one to 18. by my step mom. i was told i did not exist. i wasnt allowed to use the bathroom, and when i finally went in my pants she would tell my dad it was my fault, that i refused to go to the toilet. he worked all day so it was just me and her all day. she would tell me i was not going to eat dinner tonight or tomorrow i would be punished. then my dad would punish for not eating. i tried telling him but i got in trouble for lieing. so i kept quiet. she scared me so bad when she would pick me up to look nice in front of my dad i would wet myself. thoughts of this occuppy my mind so much, i just want escape. i turned to heroin for a long time it numbed me. clean for 90 days now. looking to talk, looking for help.
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