I had to return a rental car and I am doing ok but there was a guy in the office well to say I was triggered would be an understatement I will spare all the details he was tatted up and looked like the rapist , all in an oxford shirt well he had been released from prison,, and had a job now , but the vibes whew,,, talk about anger triggers when I returned the car today after a month it was another guy but the trigger took off in my mind I remained calm and made it home ,,, breathing thinking of this group helped me a lot,,,, going to a meeting and make plans to start the long journey of the move a step at a time feel so much stronger after a vacation thank God I got some rest and am in better shape I wont report him for lying to me that he called and called when I needed a pick up nobody ever called he could see I was older ,, he lied but if I was on red alert I would want to write him up for that and get some revenge the angry triggers, are not good, and I have a place to talk about it,, thank GOD,, he was lame he did lie to me about calling for pickup I caught him in a few lies but did not report to his boss who was there ,, he is a kind a type ,, that rapist was from prison I do not lie or exaggerate that there is a prison mentality take what you want lie cheat rape It sounds like I am targeting them but it is true at least the rapist was a sorry excuse for humanity who never was charged and this guy may have gotten out but I saw his tattoos ,, he appeared and acted much like the one who assaulted me I have to live with it I cannot fight every battle do I hate that the QB of my fav football team got away with it,, rape is just one experience that causes severe ptsd and they say if you don't get to have justice it is harder to heal, aging doesn't help running from my home I loved did not help but I am here one day at a time I am going to make it a good day and not take this in for long,, that is the progress I have made I am proud of
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