i wish i had a real person in my life to talk to about this but i have no one who understands what it's like to live with some who has pstd. (sorry in advance for the spelling and punctuation i'm trying to type this through tears) my boyfriend of 7 years was diagnosed about 1 1/2 ago. i've always known from the beginning there was something different we both thought he might have adhd (but he never told me about his abuse in the beginning not until 5 years into our relationship) i'm at the point now i have to apologize for everything i do. nothing i ever do is good enough for him yet i push myself everyday to do better. he used to be so caring now i feel like you is consumed with hate for me. we are in counseling together and alone. he isn't going alone for his own problems just to better our relationship which ironically is falling apart. i'm terrified to leave him that he will kill himself. i love this man with every breath in my body, i've held as he's cried. he can be the most caring generous person i've ever known and i'm so absolutely confused. i want to stay and i want to go. i moved to a town with him that i know absolutely no one. if anyone has any suggestion of anykind it would be most appreciated.
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