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i watch her sleep. so peaceful and serene. she talks to angels, i know. she is a light when all seems dark, "i'll help you mommy".
the angels have been talking to me. helping me through this time of questioning and hurt. most of all...she is my angel. when she was born...she was my saving "Grace". i sit and think...this is what life is all about. living, growing, figuring, hoping, fixing, loving, knowing, grieving. there are many days i just don't understand people and their motives. i don't understand why people can be so mean. i don't understand why people look at me and say horrible things. but there she is..."mommy, you are beautiful. i love you". my saving Grace. i've been talking to the angels a lot in the past few days. hoping they watch over all my friends here. there is so much to say and such little time to say it. to all my friends. as i travel down this road less travelled i find myself questioning why people hurt me and what i did wrong. tho i am not sure i did anything wrong...maybe it was them. I just dont know. i don't really trust the people out here in my life. they give me lots of reasons not to. there is 2...my little angel, and angie (my counselor). she gets itshe understands. she accepts me where i am and helps me to figure out how to move thru the crud that is still hangin on. why is it so hard for me to trust people. why is it that i can talk to people I have never seen here and not to the people out here in my life? my insiders chatter about who to trust and who not to trust and mostly come to the conclusion that nobody is really honorable to trust. i think i am scared. sometimes scared of life...of living. what happens if i make too many mistakes. what will happen then?
my heart is aching for carol (my friend that has cancer and is about to pass on) and my other friends that have gone. for my dad. for the life i want but am unable to reach.
my angel keeps me grounded most days. she looks at me with those eyes of wonder and always says to me "i like you mommy, but i love you more"
the angels have been talking to me. helping me through this time of questioning and hurt. most of all...she is my angel. when she was born...she was my saving "Grace". i sit and think...this is what life is all about. living, growing, figuring, hoping, fixing, loving, knowing, grieving. there are many days i just don't understand people and their motives. i don't understand why people can be so mean. i don't understand why people look at me and say horrible things. but there she is..."mommy, you are beautiful. i love you". my saving Grace. i've been talking to the angels a lot in the past few days. hoping they watch over all my friends here. there is so much to say and such little time to say it. to all my friends. as i travel down this road less travelled i find myself questioning why people hurt me and what i did wrong. tho i am not sure i did anything wrong...maybe it was them. I just dont know. i don't really trust the people out here in my life. they give me lots of reasons not to. there is 2...my little angel, and angie (my counselor). she gets itshe understands. she accepts me where i am and helps me to figure out how to move thru the crud that is still hangin on. why is it so hard for me to trust people. why is it that i can talk to people I have never seen here and not to the people out here in my life? my insiders chatter about who to trust and who not to trust and mostly come to the conclusion that nobody is really honorable to trust. i think i am scared. sometimes scared of life...of living. what happens if i make too many mistakes. what will happen then?
my heart is aching for carol (my friend that has cancer and is about to pass on) and my other friends that have gone. for my dad. for the life i want but am unable to reach.
my angel keeps me grounded most days. she looks at me with those eyes of wonder and always says to me "i like you mommy, but i love you more"
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very beautiful and raw... i feel that way many times.
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I'm glad you have your little angel in your life. Children are so raw and honest and sincere. I to have struggled with trust through the years. But with the help of different therapists I learned that I can have friends and most of all be a friend. I get lonely at times because most people my age are married or in a relationship. Sometimes I feel left out. But I think of the things I can do and I get through each day very thankfully. I enjoyed reading your post. I too have friends inside. I've learned to live with them, we love each other and our life is going pretty well these days. I wish you the best.
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