When I was a child, I did not know who I was to be myself. My immediate family: parents and siblings knew who I was and school nuns, peers, and so on seem to know who I was, but what they thought I was did not seem right. Why would God make something like that. Most of my 64 years I called my family the family. ..Dad & mom and eventually my six siblings. The oldest girl, Mary was about 1-1/2 years younger than me. Mary was killed by a "shell-shocked" Vietnam honorable reject. Mary was buried on my 21st birthday.) My first therapist who saved my life when I was about 35 years of age first noticed me calling the family the family. To clarify things, I would say that I just did not know how to get along with people. After about the first 15 years of therapy and drugs like alcohol, speed were behind me, I used to share with Sylvia, "Ya know, it is like a spaceship flew over the earth and just kick me out a portal and I landed amongst all the people and I was expected to know how to act amongst all these beings. But now that I look back, it was people who did not know how to get along with me. I did not have a learning disability back in the 40s, thru the mid 60s, it is that the nuns and lay teachers had a teaching disability. I am guessing by the lack of response I get from people here people still do not know how to get along with me. Oh well, I came into this world alone, except for a smack on the butt, and I leave this world alone.

I got my new computer set up and working. Jeez, it was a breeze. My first computer, 100mb, took a couple of hours to get it going. It took me about 45 min. this time including unpacking and cleaning up. At least I have art work to keep my mind active and entertained.

I bet I am not the only one who the world of people does not know how to get along with. However, how would I know about them personally?

To completely Love my God, I have to completely Love God beings. I wonder if I will ever be able to completely Love all of you. It is good thing I don't have to like everyone. "Love all of you" what a awesome job." I guess that dude Jesus did even with what people did to him. [For heaven's sake don't try to be perfect. Look what they did to him.] My body has endured as much injury and pains as Jesus did--but that is all relative.

My new computer is a Hewitt Packard 8gb, with expandable to 16gb. So fast. I already have a refurbished HP 8gb. But the 8gb is the expanded amount. I cannot ever see myself buying any but a HP. Ya know, HP used to build cars. Then they moved to Canada stopped building cars. They started building large appliances and eventually went into space equipment and then computers or something like that. I made up a personal business card. I will put it up on my web site and share it with all of you.

I got to run out and get my 'lead' lined hat now. Nuclear Electrical Plants blowing up everywhere. Did you see the Japanese police wearing masks to protect them for radioactive particles. Well, I might not have all my marbles but I ain't that stupid.

RICHARD