I need to be honest. I'm not a very nice person. There's a lot of people on DailyStrength, I truly adore. On the other hand, there are a couple of people on these Forums, that I absolutely cannot stand. I don't like being judged or disliked. However, I am one to judge and dislike. I try to treat others the way I like to be treated...but I have hard time accepting others. I'm just trying to be honest, and not be fake. I don't care if I hurt your feelings or if I don't like you...but I'm trying to change that. I'm trying to go through life with a more loving heart, and a more open mind. I saw a couple of posts Today, that made my blood boil. I almost commented on a couple of them. I'm proud of myself though. I didn't. For the first time, I didn't start conflict. I'm always fighting with people. (Especially in real life.) I just needed to rant on here. It takes all of the strength in me not to call others "perverts" or "fucking idiots." Sorry. Rant over.
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