My life has been full of stressful, jarring events. Alcoholic father, bullying, threatening, rape, 9/11 (I was not far away in NYC). I've been trying to lead a more peaceful life out of the city, but when stressful things happen I get jumpy and on edge. Recently a conflict at work made me really upset and angry and I couldn't shut off my nerves for 6 weeks. I couldn't sleep or stop crying. I did start therapy again. I had been in therapy and was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 17. I've been stable for a long time and my body is telling me that this isn't normal. I am afraid. Even when I had an argument with my mother, my nerves started up again and I couldn't sleep. I feel like I'm quivering deep down inside much of the time. What cna be done. Is there any medicine that helps? What about the eye desensitization? I can't live like this. My therapist and doctor don't quite know what to do.
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