Well, it's not really amnesia. It's just disassociation. I have disassociative PTSD. I still have ALL the feelings and know what happened, in vague terms. I still get triggered and still have all the emotions. The only way I was able to detrigger was to recover one of the trigger memories. I was able to use the propranolol to remove the connection between the memory and the catecholamine release.

It was an intense experience and I would never do it again without a therapist. Still, it's nice to have that trigger gone and, the thing is, I can ignore the memory and don't have an emotional attachment. I like that better than being a slave to it, whether I remember the details or not.

I suppose you have to decide what works for you. I'm okay with facing it head on to get long term results rather than suffering every day until I die. Does it bother you every day? Are you okay with that? Or is it worth some short term discomfort for longterm results? Only you know what is okay for you. :)

For me, that is a hard call. I only work on stuff if it is affecting my daily life. After years a therapy and digging around in the past, well, I got almost too much to handle. But handle it I did. It appears things come up when you are feeling safer. Maybe you got triggered. I'm running out of words to say, but now when I have a flash, well, I just tell it to stay behind me, or if it is disrupting my life, I'll go ahead and write it down in my journal and see what I can do about it today. I'm been through the wringer with years of therapy. Some of it was damaging to me. The therapist I have now, we just work on my today life and I'm doing much better. I'm not downing therapy, I just had some therapists who worked on memory recovery for me and it was pretty difficult to handle because too much came up too fast and my life was totally disrupted. Anyway, I'll shut up now. Just take it one day at a time. I too was abused by several people. I'm really sorry that happened to you.

This is a personal decision. I was flooded with memories for years. I know I will never remember a lotof what happened. (My childhood is pretty much a blank except for the memories that returned in flashbacks.)
I got to a point where I realized I had remembered enough to understand why I am the way I am. That's when I told myself no more memories -- I've remembered enough.

for me it was different. I had PTSD for years and didn't know what I was seeing. it was like one long nightmare that streached into daytime and my whole life. i thought I was losing my mind. then 2ish years ago I began to remember. no picnic, but in the end I know what went on. what made me and I'm not going insane. anything is better then thinking that I'm losing my mind - at least for me.

I haven't had a lot of memories come flooding back yet.

But, I think if there is a trigger that is set off, it will bring it a memory back whether you like it or not.

It's up to you if you want to investigate it further in therapy...but it may unfold on its own...and then I would work on processing it or deactivating it through therapy...like EMDR, or propranolol...but propranolol is not, oh can't think of the word...so I say prescribed for the deactivation in long-term PTSD.