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I did something stupid and was rushed straight into intensive care on heart monitors and being put on meds to keep my heart going. They were saying we are trying to keep you alive at the point in time. My heart rate and blood pressure was dangerously low. The medicine they had give me to keep my heart pumping made me vomit non stop. I was heaving heavy and just throwing up bile. It was pretty scary being told u could die any second. I decided not to tell anyone of this situation and just told my boyf i had oded and was in hospital but he still doesnt know how serious. I feel very weak and cant breathe very well. My blood pressure is still vwry low but i signed out the hosputal against medical notice because of my autism i was having huge mealt downs and they didnt have enough staff to support me despite all their efforts to make me stay i couldnt.
So im at home way to early and im terrified im going to collapase. I never wanted to die. I didnt od to die. I was just frustrated a great deal. I knew oding on beta blockers was dangerous bit i thought nah it wont happen to me il be just fine.
My birthday is tomorrow. I'm going out with some friends to a casino. I've never been, it sounds like a lot of fun, so thats what I decided to do. The friend that can come is the one that lived with me earlier this year. She's and her daughter are on meth. They are both coming tomorrow when I get off work. I want to have fun but I also don't want to have to worry about getting in trouble the...
Today is the day for Pachabel. Slept a solid 8 hours. Which is an amazing grace.