I’ve been going through so much lately that you would think I’d be reaching out more, I do when I can but lately I’ve been maybe dissociating but I think it’s a little different. In the past ive been so spaced out not there dissociating. But lately I’ve so much I’m trying to battle physically (& emotionally) so much stirring in my head but I just can’t write it, can’t get it out. I read posts on here & want to respond & then freeze up. This has though been a pattern in my life that when I’m going through really hard times I go quite & don’t tell or express it.
Idk probably none of this made any sense, I wish I could get stuff out. Sometimes it all feels too bad & I feel like I’ve been so screwed up & brutalized that people would just be like woah & not know what to say which makes me feel isolated.
I really don’t want to be broken forever
Maybe I should attempt to write another journal, if I can idk
I need to heal a little bit, I’m trying but scared & don’t want to be a hopeless story
I hope I don’t delete this post or hate on myself for writing it & posting it
Sorry if anyone can feel the negative energy from this post
Not sure if I should be writing in this kind of a headspace or if this it the time I should reach out when I’m in this headspace .....
Just wanted to know if any of you using CBD have had more anxiety on it instead of less, I just started a 10 days ago and had to stop because of panicky feeling that just seemed to ramp up as soon as it starting wearing off- have been off for 3 days and feeling a little better, is this possible? Thanks everybody
Woke up off today and the day did not get much better. Moody and not in the mood for crap. Argued with hubby, annoyed grocery shopping etc. No patience for anything. Got home, dog had peed on the floor because kid and hubby did not let him out. No one bothered cleaning it up, so I had too. They said they did not see it. BS. Poor dog. Forgot dog food, when...