So I'm all moved into my new apartment. I moved here a little over a week ago. I had mixed feelings about it at first. Many of the other residents are older and in much rougher shape than me. But I only look like I'm not disabled. The truth is that people do sometimes see me in pain but I hide it best I can and stay out of sight when it's bad. I also felt like accepting housing here was like "giving up" and accepting that I will never have the life I want. It's subsidized by a charity organization but you also pay rent.
At least that's what I felt like the first few days. Now, I feel completely different.
All my neighbors have been good to me. They love my dog. I made a few friends and continue to get to know them.
The place came furnished and they help you get whenever else you can't get for yourself. I brought a lot with me but it's nice knowing they can help fill in the gaps.
There are food pantries here twice a week. I went to the first one on Sunday. I couldn't believe what I got. Not just quantity but quality. And knowing that this food would otherwise go to waste helps too. It's a huge financial burden off my back.
I save $125 a month on rent. No utilities because they are included. And it's my own space. It's an efficiency apartment and it's the perfect size for me and my dog.
Transportation around here is so much easier. I can take the bus very easily. I even looked up what schools are easy to get to by bus when the school year starts and I start subbing again. There are some that are 20-35 minute rides away and a few that I could get to in less than an hour if I wanted to go to other schools and have more options. It's also a huge financial burden lifted because of the cost of gas and car maintenance. So if something happens to my van, and I can't fix it right away, no big deal because the bus takes me everywhere I need to go. Even the places where I do food demos on the weekend are accessible by a short bus ride too.
They also have a weekly bus trip to the local supermarket for residents if you need it at no charge.
I don't feel isolated anymore. I know when I leave my apartment I'll be greeted by smiling faces. This neighborhood is also safer to walk my dog so I've been walking her every day. Today we went for a half hour. It's been a while since I could physically do that with my back. And we walk shorter distances throughout the day around the complex. My dog loves the attention that the other residents give her. And I'm glad that she brings a smile to their faces too.
There's a nice outdoor area with a pavilion that people go to hang out and enjoy the weather. I go down there once or twice a day just to get some exercise and talk to people or just hang out and take in the fresh air.
The first few days here were rough. I had isolated myself because I was overwhelmed with moving again and felt lonely, confused, and uncertain of how this would all work out. Now, I feel great about it. Financially, I feel so much better and so much less pressure. I'm not socially isolated. My dog and I are getting plenty of exercises. It's pretty great.
I get trigger point injections on Thursday for my neck and shoulders bc those muscles are hard as a rock. Normally I'd be freaking out about how I can't work this weekend because it took a week to recover from the last round. Now I'm not freaking out. I'm still doing the demos but less of them and more spread out so that I don't overtax my body.
I also restart physical therapy tomorrow with a new PT.
So it's going really well. I'm so glad I moved to Texas. All the struggles of my first year and a half here have been worth it to get to this point. I would never have these opportunities in PA.
We've had a great weekend. We met the grandkids for the first time and they are ADORABLE. They loved the pool here and we went swimming yesterday. My only issue with that is it is not a zero entry pool so not handicapped friendly at all. I met a goal which was to go swimming this summer although I am going to have to find a zero entry pool that i can use year around. I hope I continue to feel...
I still haven't lost my 4.o but I'm starting to wonder if any of this is worth it. I lost my job and had to take out a loan against school and the topic for this week is soft skills. They are the cornerstone of my beliefs, but I'm to the point of wondering if soft skills are just skills to voice rather than practice. I believe in teamwork more than almost anything else but have been written up...