I just started seeing a chiropractor, that uses vitamins and minerals in his practice. He asked me if I remember my dreams. I said no, b/c I usually do not, and if I do remember parts, they are all nitemares. All the abuse my husband did to me was in my sleep--he drugged me after I fell asleep. I have insomnia pretty bad, and go thru bouts of it. I am glad that I do not remember my dreams. The dr told me that I will start remembering my dreams, and that was good, b/c I had to get all the bottled up bad stuff out. But it's not like it was just one incident, it was many over years. If I start remembering them, it is going TOTALLY mess me up psychologically, as if I'm not already there! I need to take many meds in order to get to sleep, and stay asleep, b/c my body tenses up in my sleep b/c it knows that that was when the abuse took place. This is 5 yrs later! I'm afraid to remember, I don't want to, but he says I have to get it all out, then I will not have any pain anymore. I almost would rather live w/ the pain, then to remember EVEN ONE EVENT that happened to me. Help!! I do not want to remember, it's only going to mess me up more, then I'll end up in a psych ward somewhere forever, not getting the proper treatment that I really need. Any feedback as to what I should do? I really do not want to remember ANYTHING!!
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