i think im going mad at times not able to controll my emotions from one secound to the next.one min numb empty, calm then next crying like ivenever cryed before. distant then wanting.. feeling alone then wanting ppl around you then when u get there u want to go home..its like having a split personality to me feelings ive never felt before scares me. thoughts i thought i could never think of, dark and deep. like a black whole consumes you suckingyou in deeper. the lite at the end dissapers then not longit re appears like it never left...shadowed with fearand haterd,not loving yourself not wanting to be loved.. not wanting to live but you still live... it consumes all yr energy what is the right way of dealing with it is there a rightway..
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